about a week to go

the proverbial ten pounds of shit in a five pound bag. and i'm trying to cram it all in between breastfeeding a six-week-old Peanut. i get depressed at the drop of a hat. the movers come in about a week (pack Wednesday, load Thursday), but we can't get the "spread" dates (the date our stuff will actually arrive up North). we haven't made reservations for Grandma (el Jefe's mom) for a place to stay up North; either way she's not going to fit in the apartment until our stuff arrives. Grandma is staying at my parents now while they're in Hawaii for a month (convenient trip, don't you think?) ... they also have a dog sitter staying there. how weird. and we may have to camp there (on couches) once our stuff gets loaded. Peanut and Punkin both have 5 kids ahead of them on the day care waiting lists up North, waiting lists that we got on at the beginning of February ... we have an alternate established for Punkin, and that means moving him to a different school twice, but what else can we do? i'm out of FMLA leave towards the end of August, with no office to move to, but being a full time mom was not part of the plan.

i'm making lists, and actually checking things off, and of course adding to them. cleaning, packing, taxes (Hawaii GE, lucky us), donating, and trying to cram in work and more packing. oh, and the interruption every other day that someone wants to see the house. we dropped the price and are offering $5K to the buyer at closing. i'm freaked out that someone is going to show up when i'm feeding the Peanut. i already had a potential when i was changing a diaper ... i honestly think i had poop running down my arm as i answered the door with a naked baby. el Jefe' says i'm too nice. let's face it: i am nearly desperate to sell this house as i do not want to live in an apartment forever. for very long. if this move was to Hawaii, we would have a place to move to. next time ...

i've known this month would be chaotic for awhile. i am getting through it. i just have to keep telling myself that i have something to look forward to.